First, I really so curious about how my boyfriend can endure my attitude because I've been so emotional sometimes. I wonder how was his reaction in front of the phone. Perhaps smashing his phone? :\ I don't like to joke with him especially when I'm in a bad mood because he is the one who will take care of my future, he should be know we very well than others do. But then I can fooling around with my friends, maybe this made him feel a little bit unfair and grew the jealousy? I tried to be independent, I kept all the troubles but this made me more even stress. Just now, I found out a blogger who broke up with her boyfriend, I thought how sad I will be if that is me. I really scare to lose you but I don't know when will you finally can't stand with me anymore. This make me down again now.
My friends. I still can remember how my secondary's life was. The most upset phase for me, because of my stubbornness, I lost my friends who I care the most. Although we are still the best buddy, but I really wish to get back our gang like before. I don't know why it happened, but it really happened. So, don't ask me why because I can't give you an answer. :3 I think now the history is about to iterate as I'm so confuse about the friendship now. Seriously I don't like people to constrain me. You are my friend or my mom or my companion? I don't need you to ask about my routines and this only make yourself so annoyed. I'm so stubborn. This call Si Pattern. :\ When I don't really like you, I could speak out, otherwise I will just silent myself. But then I still have my best friends who I can always tell them my life. You can stalk me to know who is she or who are them? Lastly, I'm good to you but please remember it isn't a should. Only best friend deserve it.
So sorry about this annoying post. Finally feel a little bit lighter after throw out all the thoughts.
I'm thinking should I post it out? Or just keep it as draft.